Current mood:

drunk

No. 13
'Been a weird couple o' weeks since I've been back. I've been feelin' pretty damn great with all the trainin' I did, and the fight with Yoruichi was a good warm up..

Keep missin' Yachiru, that brat's never around when ya need 'er. Havent seen the others fer a while now. Talked to Yumi a while back, but that was when I jus' came back.

So, I'm back lookin' fer fights... gettin' them where I can, an' so far there aint any decent challenges. Dont friggin' tell me I'm to the point where everythin's too easy again.


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This whole thing with Yoruichi is messin' me up, and I hate admittin' it. She's a big girl. She knows what she wants and I aint gonna get in the way of that. I wouldnt want her to try to tame me anyway. A woman will only hold me back. I'm glad she doesnt remember what happened that one night. I only wish I could forget it too, and save myself some o' my pride. Dont know what the fuck's wrong with me, but I'm gettin' over that shit now.

I'm a thug, a fighter, a bloodthirsty man who can't afford any kind of weakness. I got bad timin' and I'm not gonna be a soft, gentle, piece of shit pansy ass. I am who I am, an' that aint gonna change.

Still feel like shit fer treatin' her so bad, but fuck. Thats why she aint with me. She can have 'er fun with Rose. I aint spendin' another minute regrettin' anything.
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